So I was driving home and I put my Ipod on random and a Jason Aldean song came on and I'll be the first to say that Jason is my man. All his music has a deep meaning and I can totally relate to all his songs. But this particular song is totally my anthem. This song was about him getting rejected and rejected in Nashville but being persistent and using what he has and never giving up on his dream no matter how many people try to bring him down. I can totally can relate to this song because I take what I can get, like my lame job at ranch market, and give until I don't have nothing left. The constant no's from the small fancy bakeries but thats not going to slow me down because I know in the future I'm going to have the greatest cakes and people are going to come to me. I'm not going to give up on my dream. I'm going to stay persistent and master my craft. I'm going to climb these mountains and break a sweat because at the end it's all going to be worth it. Here are the lyrics to the song. Enjoy :)
Nobody ever thought I'd make it in this town
They all said i should leave my truck, pack, and turn right back around
They said I didn't have what it takes
I needed money and a pretty face
But I just look at them and say...
I use what I got
Take what I get
Give Until I ain't got nothin' left
Then I give it some more
Keep on climbing up that mountain
Keep truckin' along, work up a sweat
Pass every no, after no, after no, till I get a yes
I don't worry about what I'm not
I use what I got, yeah
I still got big dreams and a strong heart
I got a lot of real good friends who helped me get this far
I still got a lot of miles to go
It's a winding, uphill road
But I'll get there the only way I know
chorus
Keep on rollin' along, doin' my best
Pass every no after no after no til I get a yes
I don't worry about what I'm not
No, no, I don't worry about what I'm not
I use what i got, yeah
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
up up and away...
Today I sent off my balloon with my note! 1 down 100 to go! Well actually I don't know if I can cross off #69, grow my own herbs. They are officially planted and I guess I wont cross it off unless I cook something with them. But today was a great day. I just need to grow some balls and get some courage to ask that kid out to lunch. Today we where joking around the whole time in class and I was like totally going to ask him I even brought up that ihop is giving out free pancakes and that could of moved into lets go after class. but no. Why am I flan! Well I'm going to hopefully trade numbers on thursday. It's my goal. Well I'm making dinner so I need to get back to that. Til then... veggie soup.
Monday, February 22, 2010
clean room, clean thoughts.
My room is finally clean. Today I was driving home from Costco and lowes buying some stuff for the house and my herb garden! #69 (See pictures) Hold on lets go back to the morning. I sat in my truck waiting for it to warm up and I was trying to decide what I wanted to listen to on my ipod. I sat back and scrolled through the list and couldn't decide. So I went to the song section and just hit random. I really do enjoy all the music on my ipod. Its a wide range of different genres and I enjoy every song. I did not skip any of them and I'm impressed of what music I have collected in the last few years. All day another great song would follow another and a few I've never heard before but enjoyed just as much. Back to my ride back from Lowes and Costco. I was driving down the 223 and I saw two ladies flagging down cars and no one was stopping. In my head I was thinking about how that one time me my mom and a few others where stuck on the side of the freeway down in San Diego and man did that suck. Well I pull over and the lady tells me a story about how her and her friend where on their way back from Anaheim and they ran out of gas and don't have any money to buy more. She was offering to sell me her rings, cell phone, camera, anything of value she had on her. I told her to hold on as I was walking back to the car I knew I only had a twenty in my wallet, I had some other bills but they where hundreds and they where dedicated towards my school payment so I was like whatever I'll give her the twenty it doesn't hurt me and I know God will repay me in the long run twice fold. I gave her the twenty and told her to be safe and God bless. She was so grateful that I gave her that much. She continued telling me that I was the first to stop and they have been waving down cars for an hour. She was insisting that I give her my name and address so she can pay me back and I declined and told her to just make sure they get home safely. I believe that God is testing us everyday to make sure we hold true to what he teaches us. Wouldn't you want someone to help you in your time of need. And I knew it would eat at me if I never stopped, it would be in the back of my mind the whole time wondering. But in other news I plated my herbs today :) woohoo and I'm going to send off my balloon and note today too. Well hoping that Nereo brings my balloon. I have to get some homework done...so till next time... rock music heavy on synth.
the rain and wind.
Laying in my bed waiting for the z's to come I feel at peace with myself. My windows are open and I can hear the rain drip off the house and splatter on the ground. The palms blowing in the wind and my mind slowly wondering to a great place. He's been on my mind a lot and hopefully something will come of him on tuesday. It's been a long weekend and work was decent. Now trying to focus on a few things I can accomplish this week. I guess I really didn't realize that I do try to inspire a lot of people, getting them to believe in themselves and to conquer the world. I believe anyone has the power to make their future theirs and do what they want in life. Any goal is reachable as long as you have the mind set that you can accomplish anything. My list isn't hard to accomplish, some will take a lot longer to accomplish due to financial dedication and opportunities to open so I can accomplish them but all in all they will get done. I have a track record of not accomplishing things I have started but my life has totally changed when I completed culinary school. This was one of the first major things I have accomplished in my short life. I have many years (God willing) to come and I want to make the best of them. I happy that little things in life make me happy and I'm not that needy of a person to make anything great. Hearing the wind takes me somewhere I really can't explain but my mind is at ease and finally letting the stress of my weekend work week come to an end and now to focus on school and family. 19 days til the big 21 and how excited I am. Sleep is coming and the pitter patter of the rain is making me dose. Until tomorrow, more like today. Sweet dreams and banana pancakes.
Thursday, February 18, 2010
kiss of inspiration
Yesterday I mentioned Nereo and I at the park sitting, talking and taking in the view. We had a deep conversation about love. We both witnesses something so moving that it has yet to leave my mind. We where sitting on a bench on the bluffs talking about the river and other things, and at the bluffs, people are always working out since it's such a wonderful view and a great place to run. Well we saw an elderly couple walking and I was commenting on the lady's hair and how it was purple. We where watching them get into the car and the old man opened up the door for the lady and closed it behind her and then he went around got in and they left. I told Nereo at that instant, that's what I want. I want to truly fall in love. I don't want to settle for any old joe, I want to find my true love. I'm not a person to rush for the L word or even into situations that would leave me vulnerable to catch the fever. I always say I have my eye out for some one, but I'm a big game talker. I've seen what rushing into things turns into and you get my parents, two people who really didn't truly know each other but took the dive anyways. It hasn't been roses but yet they made me and my brothers and yet to split. I admire their commitment and how they've made it work but I want something more natural. A couple I look at that always amazes me is a teacher that has became a friend. Her and her husband are really in love and I can see it. I can't wait to see who will make my heart beat faster and slower at the same time, that special someone that just hearing his name makes me skip a breath, all those cheesy things you hear about love. I can't wait, but can. No rush. Update on my list, I started journaling and I have not sworn or eaten meat today, great start and I'm excited. Probably going to read right now waiting for Nereo to come over so we can get this other business done. But until tomorrow... zebra hotpants.
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
day zero is in 1000 days
My professor said when you write down your goals your more likely to achieve them. So here it is (look at the picture) my wall of inspiration. Today was the first day and it's coming along. Today I was in the BC library and checked out two classic books, Animal Farm and The Old Man and the Sea. I've already started the Old man and the Sea. So thats what I'm working on. I'm starting also #31 no swearing for a week, #2 going veg for a month, #28 write in a journal for a month. This is a serious load, especially swearing but I'm praying to keep strong and accomplish this. We shall see what stays true tomorrow. Until my update tomorrow... journaling.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
there is a reason for everything
I have become more aware that God has a purpose for everything he throws your way. People come and go in your life, but the time they are there they make you experience and realize things you'd never experience alone. I have two people that I'm writing about in particular you could probably guess one but the other only one person knows about him. One of the people I'm writing about made me experience little things in life that made me happy and on the other side made me realize how I shouldn't treat people. Me and this particular person where the best of friends and I stuck my reputation out for him for things that I think back on that where mistakes but you know what shit happens. I wouldn't take back all the time I spent with him because there are reasons God put him in my life. The other person is this guy I met online and we started talking. I was deceiving him the whole time we talked which killed me inside and I got what I had coming to me, but with the few weeks he was in my life and even after the fact he inspired me to become a better person. I don't think he'll ever forgive me but maybe one day he will, but the post below was inspired by him. He's a very knowledgeable guy and what I took away from him can only better me. I'm very motivated to my list and it's mostly dedicated to him and myself. Mistakes can set you back unless you learn from them. And you should never take anyone for granted. I had pure poison in my life for awhile but I don't regret it because you need one rainy day to make you appreciate the sunny ones. So that's a little behind my list and my motivation. Until later..... male figure skating.
101 things I want to do in the next 1001 days
I recently met this guy through the internet who is very interesting. He runs his own art blog and he pretty much does this unprofessionally but man does he know a lot. I saw on his site something about doing 101 things in a 1001 days and so I googled it and the project is called the "Day Zero" project. It makes you set goals and a date that you want to accomplish these goals. I decided I was up for the test and so I sat down and thought of 101 things I would like to accomplish in the next 1001 days. So here is my list, when I finish an item I will take a picture and journal it in my log and keep you guys updated :) and here is the website http://www.dayzeroproject.com/user/rachelfosho :)
1
Attend a roller-derby match
2
Go vegetarian for a month - done!
3
Send a secret to PostSecret - done!
4
See the Northern Lights
5
Ride in a hot air balloon
6
plant a tree
7
Attend a Murder Mystery
8
Sing karaoke at a bar
9
Donate blood
10
Go camping
11
Get a tattoo
12
Say yes to everything for a day
13
Buy a car
14
Fire a gun
15
Tie a note to a balloon and let it go - done!
16
Watch the sun rise and set on the same day
17
Complete a 1000 piece jigsaw puzzle
18
Have a spa day
19
Visit Niagara Falls
20
Learn CPR
21
Experience a New Year's kiss.
22
adopt a cat
23
Pay for someone else’s food behind me at the drive-thru
24
Learn calligraphy
25
Watch The Godfather
26
go wine tasting in Napa
27
Be more confident
28
keep a journal for a month
29
Learn to speak Italian
30
Visit Nashville
31
Don't swear for a week
32
host a cocktail party
33
learn to knit
34
go on a cruise
35
Read 50 books
36
lose 50 lbs
37
sleep under the stars
38
go on a road trip
39
make sushi
40
dance in the rain
41
Pay off my Visa
42
make my own cheese
43
attend a huge summer concert
44
meet and take a picture with a celebrity - done!
45
go line dancing at a honkeytonk
46
buy my dad a beer
47
make a video of my vacation and set it to music - done!
48
learn to play "the final countdown" on the piano
49
learn a song on my acoustic guitar
50
make a 5 course dinner
51
eat at three different celebrity restaurants in Las Vegas
52
Finish my T-shirt quilt
53
Take cupcakes to class - done!
54
go to disneyworld
55
go to an NFL game
56
paint a canvas painting
57
Attend an Opera
58
make strawberry wine
59
make my own beer
60
learn to ball room dance
61
Visit my friends in the bay area
62
make a cake for each friends birthday
63
sleep on the beach
64
go boating and bump "I'm on a boat"
65
Leave an inspirational note on someone's car
66
teach my best friend how to drive
67
go on a true date
68
go to the annual fireman auction
69
grow my own herbs - done!
70
ride the amtrack to NorCal
71
Visit the south
72
attend a laker game
73
party in mexico
74
Read the bible
75
expand my vocabulary
76
learn 5 different origami folds
77
Purchase a cook book and cook everything in it
78
Meditate 2 times a week for a month
79
Learn to make 9 mixed drinks and one signature drink
80
Play a round of golf
81
write a rough draft of my movie "the year of 4"
82
take pin up pictures
83
Go 5 days without my computer
84
watch 10 classic movies
85
Attend 5 different museums
86
Visit the San Diego Zoo
87
Make a font of my handwriting
88
make an awesome bonfire
89
attend 10 concerts
90
Watch the rocky horror picture show
91
purchase a coloring book and have all my friends color in it
92
visit Forks, WA
93
have a candle light dinner
94
create a photo journal for a week
95
attend a killers concert
96
Go to 5 different clubs in Las Vegas
97
Send christmas cards that I designed
98
write a children's book about chuck and bruiser
99
get my palm read
100
go to a comedy club
101
attend a taping for a TV show
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