Get off on the pain...

So there is no pain to get off on... I've just been listening to Gary Allen's song "get off on the pain" and I love it :) I've been actually really happy lately. I don't know why but I love it. I'm still stuck on the Alkaline Trio CD and I've probably been listening to that more than anything right now. The weather is so great right now, well more crazy than anything because one day it will 80's and the next 60 with gusts of winds in the 40mph area. We'll I dont care because i love randomness :) I haven't blogging because I'm "busy" with fictitious stuff but since i was stood up to go to the gym tonight I was thinking what better time to blog. I really dont have much on my mind these days, well maybe just stressing on huge presentation that surprising i left to the last minute to start and finish but either way they came out really great and I'm expecting really good marks on both presentations. We had a group presentation last week and holy crap did we bomb that. Some kid thought my group would do the best in the class and honestly we did the worse! I read the comments on our teachers page and I was the only one that got great remarks :) oh how I know how to fling bull crap and the teacher was there catching everything. OH btw I got to knock another thing off my list i took s'more cupcakes to class! and i dont remember what number that was but it was apart of my list :) woohoo. Ugh i feel like I dont have a life right now! work is consuming all my time, well that and school. thank goodness school is over in less than 3 weeks, i think its two? well whatever, regardless i still will not have a life! I will soon start working mornings so at 4am or 5 or 6! le boo. okay i'm fighting to stay away right now but I'll write in here tomorrow. I need to sleeeeeeeep. ttyl.

Anchors away...

Today I was driving to work and I had the CD Casey burned me when I was down in Vegas. It's called "This addiction" by Alkaline trio and holy crap I love this cd. I have some older stuff of A3 and I loved it too I don't understand why I dont have more of their stuff. Well I was stuck on the song "dine dine my darling" which is probably still my number one but today I let the cd play through and I feel in love with the song "off the map." It just a good song or not that it's a good song but I love the connection I have to that song/CD. It's pretty great. Maybe you should download it or listen to it here :) I think this song is making me want my tattoo more but i want it to say "so are you coming with me? anchors away...." it would be awesome around an old school navy anchor. Well whatever. I need to sleep work in the am. I hoping to post more tomorrow. I have some mixed feelings in me and I need to express them hopefully soon. peace and enjoy the video :)

-fo sho

no comp in class leads to poems

it kills me to hear how loney he is
it make me sore that i couldnt be there for him
the bars, the park, hell even the train station
i would be there to cure his lonely
little cabin out west could have been a grand idea
but your sister would have not been there
it kills you to see her cry and be sore
especially since you would be the one to be blamed for
i'd catch you off the cliff if you ran in the rye
this book about a kid has inspired my life

The Catcher in the Rye

I have no clue why I wanted to read 'the catcher of the rye' but I'm really glad I did. I had a great time reading it. I knew this kid once that I picture as Holden Caulfield and I guess that made me like it even more. I missed him. None of you know this kid, I met him randomly but he keeps a blog and his style of writing reminds me of Holden. Anyways... The story is about a kid thats 17, his parents are rich and he's sent off to prep school and he's been kicked out of four and he recently got kicked out of his fifth. He goes about his experiences and how crappy some of his life has been and then he goes on about this girl that made him really happy and his roommate had a date with her and Holden asked him how it went and he made it sound like he just banged her which made Holden very mad. Him and his roommate went at it and he decided to take off. He takes off to New York and has these weird experiences back to back. Well I really don't want to get into it. He gets very depressed in the book and go on this emotional roller coaster with him, the highs and lows of different situations. But all in all its a great read and I hope you pick it up one day. Well this is another one knocked off my list :)

post secret.

#3 send secrets to post secret. done.

I was at barns and nobles grabbing "the catcher in the rye" so I can read it and see if I want to kill somebody after, because you know thats how John Lennon was killed. Some guy read that book and went out and killed John. Well after I grabbed the book I asked the lady where the post secret books where and there is like 5 different books. I read two of them and it killed a good amount of time. It's weird to read all these secrets because you know there was pain behind some of them. Some where funny like the one that said he recorded his cat on a mini tape meowing and hid it in the library on play. haha! but some of them where really sad like this girl that slept over her friends house and the kids uncle molested her. I couldn't believe some of them. So last night after reading a few chapters of catcher in the rye which is on my list, I kept thinking about what secret would I tell. I had a few secrets that I haven't told a soul and some secrets that I totally regret telling an old friend that burned out. I swore to myself I would take my secrets to my grave but I really enjoyed getting creative and making my postcards. I would post them but I want my secrets to be secrets and stay anonymous. But I'll show my envelope. I was sitting in my room just thinking of what secrets I would enjoy giving away and I did two of them. I really wanted to do a few more but maybe in a few months I can just let them go. I just need a stamp and my secrets are free.

Everywhere and Nothing.

Okay I can lie and say I was busy and I can lie and say work and school are swallowing me alive, but it's not true. I have just been to lazy to write in my blog. I seriously wish i could just blog from my brain because seriously when I'm at work and just thinking to myself I have such great topics to talk about and it would make your brains processors explode! but yeah I'm a d-bag and do not write down my ideas in my stupid handy dandy book I carry around. Well anyways it has been awhile since I wrote in here. Lets start with my 101 list. I met a celebrity! He is a music celebrity but he soon going to win entertainer of the year! I met Zac Brown from the Zac Brown Band. I actually met everyone that sang that night. The show was super amazing and just really fun! I had never been to a country show and wow is it fun. It's really jam band setting and thats what I love. It was a controlled chaos. They all didnt have back up bands they all just played together. Idk I really enjoy it and I really cant wait til May when we go see little big town, lady A, and Tim McGraw. Okay bringing up that show brings me to the people that are going with us. Okay my bros friend that is a girl is going and she is talking her best friend. Well I got to know both of them on St. Patty's day and I got to "know" her best friends in a personal level. Well that night we danced, flirted, whatever. Well he got a call and said "oh shit my girlfriend is calling" well from then on I was backing off from him but the whore in me wanted him more, so we made an excuse to go outside and me and him where sitting at my truck bed talking and having a really great time. He asked for my number and put his in mine. We where having a great time just us talking and then the phone rang and she was around the corner. So yeah we kinda backed off each other and just acted like we where just talking. She kind of gave me the stare down or whatever but I was like whatever about it. when I left home I was texting him, when I got home I texted him and told him we made it home and that it was really great to meet him blah blah blah well his "gf" text me back asking me all these questions making sure that i knew that he was hers. Okay so that night passed and yesterday was Teo's 22nd birthday and Yaqui called me and was asking me all these questions about the plans and we just started talking about random things and she told me about how "he" felt bad about how his "gf" texted me that night. She went on and started spilling the beans on how the arent even together and that she cant let him go and she still all up on his nuts. So yeah good info :) Dinner was fun and drinks where hilarious. Lore got into the bar and didnt get ID woohoo :) but yeah that was a great night. Well thats that fiasco. Hmmm I'm having brain farts and I cant think of all the millions of little things I wanted to type on here but eh. I guess I'll just have to use my little book to keep my thoughts. But I swear I'll try to blog at least once of week. This really does keep me sane. Oh and I have another thing i can cross off my list is that I recorded video of a vacation and put it to music. My 21st Birthday Extravaganza!   I dont know what number that is but thats another one down :) I thnk I have one more but i cant think off the top of my head. I was Veg for a month and wow that cleaned out my system. If you are down you should do that. But thats really it for right now. Thanks for reading my craziness. peace and goldfish....